We have had lots of visitors these past few weeks. First Parker and Amy came, then two weeks later Mike and Becca and the kiddos and Grandma Balle came, then Mark and Lisa and the twins came. It has been really fun and great to see everyone! And luckily, this pregnancy has calmed down and I'm feeling pretty great. Huge, but great. I really do feel so big this pregnancy! I'm like 141 pounds right now at 31 weeks. I cant' remember what I was with last ones, but it feels so much harder to bend over and pick stuff up and I just feel fat. I really don't think I felt fat the last times, even though I was. My hips hurt when I sleep and I have to rotate a lot, but my adjustable bed has really helped with that. I was having heart burn, but that has calmed down, and I haven't really had bad leg cramps. only a couple times have I had to jump out of bed, but it was never terrible. Granted, I still have 8 weeks, so we will see how I'm feeling then.
Dr Daskalos is my Dr. I really like him. He said he will induce me at 39 weeks, so June 2nd is our day! Let's hope it doesn't last two days like with Brixton. I can't believe I only have 8 weeks left! All of a sudden things are moving fast, finally! I'm so beyond grateful I am no longer sick. I don't know how I could have done that for an entire pregnancy. I'm already wishing we could try for a baby girl after this baby, but I really don't think my body should do this pregnancy thing again (or my family). Which makes me sad and envious of easy pregnancies. Who knows, 3 is a good number, I may feel done anyway. But what about my daughter? Maybe we will adopt...
I'm not feeling super bonded to this baby. I can't remember how I felt with the last two, so maybe this is how I always am? I told you I have bad memory. Luckily, once they are born, I bond pretty fast, so I'm not worried about bonding with my baby later on. It's just now that I feel pretty detached. I do like feeling him move around though. It's so cool!
I'm sleeping pretty good, other than having to turn over a lot in the night due to my hips, my cough, and my congested nose. But I don't have to get up and go to the bathroom in the middle of the night yet! Woo hoo! 31 weeks and going strong ;) I do have to be careful every time I cough or sneeze though, because this baby must be sitting on my bladder now, yeah not fun.
We don't have a name yet. Names are hard and frustrating. I always want to pick them before baby arrives, and I never do. Our top two are Soren and Everett. But also like Benson (if he's not Ben), James (maybe), and Porter. But I don't know. I feel like we are boy named out haha. C'est la vie.
Anyway, I am excited about a new baby in the house. I do love baby snuggles. Just kind of nervous to be in charge of three little people (and to lose my wonderful sleep again). Two is so doable! Every time I take them swimming, or to the store, or on bike ride, or the playground, I keep thinking, how am I going to do this alone with 3? I guess I will figure it out. Hopefully he's a good baby. He owes me!
I do worry about my little Brixton. He's become my close little buddy and he LOVES to be the baby. And honestly, he IS my baby right now. I adore him and we are very close. We always snuggle, and sit together, and he comes in my bed in the night every night, so we even sleep together. He has to always help me cook, or brush my hair, or paint my nails...he likes to do anything I'm doing. He doesn't like when I leave him to go shower, so I have to warn him I'll be gone for a few minutes, and he usually comes to check on me to give me a hug. It's going to be so hard for him to lose that. He always gives me huggies and kisses and it's all day long. It's really sweet. He's so lovey and sweet to his mama. He likes to be carried around and be the one on my lap, and luckily, Dawson is ok with that! Dawson is a sweetheart, and he's much more independent and I really don't think this baby will be hard on him. Brixton's birth wasn't even very hard on him. But Brixton is definitely a different child, and he expects more mommy attention. It makes me kind of sad to think we will lose our special bond. We will still be close I know, but it will be different. He will have to learn to be more independent and it will just change everything. I know I need to get him out of my bed at night, but I've gotten so used to it and kind of love having him there to look at in the night and make sure he's safe and then see him sleeping in the morning. I used to hate having him in my bed, but now it's just our thing. But I don't think it will work very well when I'm nursing a newborn all night.
Dawson is getting so big. I love his age. He's super easy! Maybe it's just him haha, but 5.5 is a pretty low maintenance age. Or maybe Brixton is just really high maintenance so it seems that way ;)
He just learned to ride a bike! He literally learned within 15 minutes of buying the bike and trying it out. I was super impressed. He LOVES it! It took him a week to figure out how to start and stop on him own, but now he's totally independent with it. And Brixton moved to the Balance Bike and loves it! Now i can't even keep up with them when we go to the park. They are both so fast. D loves PJ masks and is still obsessed with his cousin Emery. They love to facetime each other and we have to force them to get off eventually. THey crack me up. HE loves preschool and the kids all love him in there. He's really sweet and patient with Brixton, but Brixton loves to push his buttons, so he does get pretty upset with him now. They are starting to fight more, dang it! They still play really well though luckily. It's going to be hard when he goes to school all day. He's nervous for kindergarten and I don't blame him. It's a full day and I hate that! He loves me to read chapter books to him now. We read our first one, the one about he boy who everything he eats turns to chocolate, and he loved it! So now we read a chapter book every ngiht. He's getting so big and it's so fun! I love reading the books with him. He's a fast learner and is really getting this reading thing down! I just need to be a better teacher.
Well, I'll try to keep updating. Since this is my last (I think?) pregnancy, I need to document it! I sure love our little family and am happy with life. :)